The kingdom of Caesar is what defines me many times (or so I convince myself). It is the pursuit of power, fame, and control, all the while having a profound uncertainty internally that is mixed with anxiousness and depression at times, which continually try to erode my soul.
Yet, Jesus offers an alternative. He frees me into His Kingdom. He tells me that I know longer need to pursue personal fame, significance, or control. I know longer need to submit towards the dark screams of despair. In fact, He gives me the invitation to lay it ALL down.
After all, the call to die to myself is not an end, but a freeing into Him. It’s an invitation into True Life. It’s a call to give up the exhausting race of wanting to be noticed, precisely because I am fully noticed and excepted in Him. It’s an invitation to see His hand of redemption in all things, which includes the victory He has over my mind and heart, even in the midst of dark days.
Caesar screams in my head often, yet the loving pursuit of Jesus not only quiets the noise (sometimes it takes a LONG time), but replaces it with an anthem of “Only goodness and faithful love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord as long as I live.” (Ps. 23:6)
Stop. Get this truth.
In the words of my friend Josh Causey, “His goodness and faithful love are pursuing you in order to destroy you.” He is here to destroy doubt. He is here to free us from the bonds of need to prove our self to others (or even sometimes to our self!). He is here to overcome the loud voices of Caesar and to quiet us with His love (Zeph. 3:17). He is here to not only pursue us with goodness, but to show us that He IS goodness (Ps. 119:68).
The screaming voice of Caesar is but a whimper compared to the goodness and love that will quiet our soul.
If you are struggling with any of the loud voices of Caesar, please let me know. Email me (firstname.lastname@example.org). I want to pray for you specifically.